Thursday, June 23, 2005
the day we decided to keep a distance from one another.
alrights. i know i have not been blogging for a long long long time.
well, lets recap.
okay, the ignyte concert was fantastic.
my fiery passion for god was made even brighter.
thank god my cousins came for the concert and all.
well, i met someone special at the whole event it self.
we liked each other as in, infatuation .
we kept meeting up since then. like everyday.
including today.
alright, ytd i went to the science centre for some microbiology stuff.
prettae fun i guess.
we were like primary sch kiddos running around.
it was so interesting also la.
lols.
today's a prettae good day i guess.
well woke up and saw 2 msgs sent by her.
oh ya, and she gave us nicks.
she's chio bu and im shuai ge.
oh my gosh.
so sweet right?
i love her loads!~
anyways, i replied her and bathed.
she called.
we talked on the phone.
then she went to sch.
so we hung up and i went to play bball with my bro.
man, i was like trashing him big time.
cause im like so much taller than him.
duhh. =x
i went to eat my breakfast.
the prata was so so nice la.
goodness.
anyway, i went home after that.
did my work and all.
then she called again.
i love her so much!~
gosh.
although its like a crush and all.
okay, i went to compass point to meet her.
she was late.
her auntie was like questioning her where's she going and all.
so we met up.
we went to the place where she calls it the usual place.
we sat down and talked.
after that, she had to leave.
she was going to have tuition.
so i walked her to the cab and stuff.
and i opened the door for her okay.
im a gentlemen. hahas.
here comes the sad part of my day.
she msged me.
telling me that we shld stop all this mushy stuff.
as in telling each other how we feel.
like we miss each other and all.
cause she said that if we continued this way,
we will end up in a relationship and eventually break off soon.
i was pretty sad.
i know it was for our own good.
cause we are still studying and all.
and im having my O's this year.
-sigh-
i guess i have no choice either.
i don't know if we will ever be together.
i feel so uncertain.
is this another of her "give me some time to think" ?
it seems to be like it.
im just being so uncertain about us.
i just pray we can be together.
if it is right, whats the reason?
sigh, i better stop thinking to much.
let god do his will.
my emotions and thoughts are running wild now.
im sad, uncertain, afraid and that dreaded feeling of being so alone again is coming back.
gotta study.
i gotta stop all this stuff before i get out of hand.
god, i pray that you will help me to understand whats really going on.i feel so uncertain lord.help me to prioritise my work.lord, help me to know if she's the right one.i thank you lord, for letting her path cross with mine.she's a great person.i thank you lord.i pray all this in jesus name, amen.-i miss you-
chio bu + shuai ge = the perfect combination.
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 4:26 PM
