Tuesday, May 31, 2005
finally a burden off me.
okayy, todae was the chinese O's
wasnt tt bad.
i dunno if i had screwed up my paper 1.
well, its in the hands of god now.
aniwaes, i tot the paper 2 would be so difficult.
bt i was quite okay.
supposed to go west coast wif church people.
bt my f***ing tuition teacher wont change the freaking date.
f***.
juz hate people like her.
shit.
aniwaes, my mood been spoilt.
will try to blog again tonite.
going to pig-out.
song of the day: feel good inc, gorillaz
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 2:21 PM
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
pre-nervous breakdown.
oh shit. i tink i have to go for an sugery soon?
shucks.
well, todae was okay.
i woke up.
ate breakfast and my antibiotics pill. yuck
aniwae, had chinese.
was feeling so drowsy.
was it e pill?
dun tink so, i tink its juz me. lols
okay, went for recess and met brandon and nic.
told them smth.
which onli nic got it.
e rest were like "uhhh, wad are u talking abt..." =x
okayy, had some stupid cme programme.
i wasnt flirting wif anione la. stupid weisheng and daniel. hahs.
i found out wad ppl tot abt me.
which was nth much.
nth bad la. lols
and weisheng wrote "certified bitchy family" lols
i was lyk
"errr..."
aniwaes, i got to know my ranking in class and e whole cohort.
hahass.
i got 11th in class and 19th in the whole cohort of 170 plus ppl la.
shucks, its so disappointing. =(
aniwaes,i brought it upon my self.
studied last minute.
thank god for helping me!!~
love him so much~ =)
after tt had lunch wif cous, jabez and alex.
saw OM han wif some police.
was really weird.
met jason, gabriel and johnathan.
i dun believe im so gullible to fall into their lies. -.-
aniwaes, went for tuition.
for 3 plus hours la.
chinese...goodness.
aniwaes, went home.
watched naruto and ate.
was so hungry.
i gotta stop tinking of the past.
and let go of everything.
i guess its god's plans.
i will follow him then. =)
well, its good in a way.
i can concentrate on my O's and all.
hahhs.
aniwaes, gotta go.
mommy is home.
mug mug mug!!
song of the day : she, green day
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 8:15 PM
Monday, May 23, 2005
i gotta have a tan!
alrites, here goes.
todae i woke up super earlie.
was super annoyed.
cuz the wonderful sun was up and shining so brightly.
i wanted to go lie down and tan la.
shuccks. ):
okay, i had 3 hrs of chinese straight.
can u believe tt?
goodness, i could have died okay.
aniwaes, i ate curry at my tuition teachers house.
man, it was good.
aniwaes, went to my cousin's house.
watched movie and went to another tuition.
the room was so hot la. rawwrrrr =
after tt there was tis fat arse sitting beside me.
he was so stink okay.
i had to suffer for 2 hours.
gosh.
nearly died.
alritee, todae i realised tt e gerl i saw on the bus was nt real feelings and all.
lols.
it was juz another gerl. =D
okay, i admit i do miss the past feelings we had.
well, i juz gotta try to let go.
aniwaes, i guess we gotta remain frends always yup?
i gotta go,
im so hungry~
i gotta try my best for the O's.
study study study study study
its my life. =
song of the day: hold on, Good charlotte
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 7:14 PM
Friday, May 20, 2005
the cute gerl that captured my heart.
man, i saw tis gerl wearing a yellow shirt.
she was taking the 147 bus at 8:30pm,
she was carrying a white sling bag.
and some other stuffs on her hand.
she alighted at around serangoon north.
aww, i shld have asked for her number.
shuckss.
i wish i could see her once more.
juz one more chance to ask.
sighh,gotta go.
studyy! yea! my hobby!
shucks i shld stop lying. lols
-we looked at each other eye to eye, juz nd one more chance-
song: i want you, electrico.
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 9:13 PM
the day i forgotten all e feelings we have had.
todae was nt bad.recieved all my results alreadi.
quite okay i guess.
passed everything la!=)
bt quite disappointed though.
sigh, wad can i expect frm last min revision?
aniwaes, i was stuck outside my house la.
no one was at home and i forgot to bring my keys. lols
hah, u noe wad?im totally over wif past feelings and memories.i tot u didnt mean it.bt after tinking twice.i believe otherwise.well, i juz love the truth.play wif my feelings all you want.i dun give a shit no longer.nw i wont cry over wad has happened.i feel so liberated.i tot i would have to experience the fear of being so darn lonely.bt guess wad?im happy in e state i am right nw.i dun nd u ani more.although e truth hurts,at least i could have gotten over it.im nt wasting my time ani more.bt i admit i have significant memories.and i truthfully say that im nt blaming you at all.i swear it.its juz mayb cuz i feel cheated and all.im totally over with it.i juz want to know how did u come to know abt it.nth less or more.i guess we all dont wan others to have e wrong impressions dont we?dont worrie. im nt tt badand i didnt want to "dao" u alrite.plz dun get the wrong impressions.i would appreciate tt.cuz im nt tt cold hearted. =)aniwaes, gotta go.rawr!! got tuition and all.
wad to do? when ones got chinese O's coming up.
song of the day: swing swing, all american rejects.
-liberated frm holding on, i can confide in only a few people-
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 5:34 PM
Thursday, May 19, 2005
denial.
todae was gd and bad i guess.
got back quite a few papers.
i tot i would fail amaths.
which i did at first by one mark.
i was really suprised tt i scored higher than those who realli studied and completed e paper la.
cuz i didnt do 4 huge weightage questions.
aniwaes, stanley tan gave me the one mark la.
for understanding e question and getting one step correct.
thank god. man, stanleys a nice guy.
well thank god for having teachers such as stanley, jean koh, christina liew and all la.
they juz make sch a better place and helped me in my studies alot.
well thanks to christina liew tt i got into triple science though.
cuz i was nt supposed to la.
sighh, im so indebted to her for it.
thank god for such wonderful teachers.
i was surprised u msged me abt it.
i tot u didnt noe tt i knew e truth.
bt i guess it was a lie or juz a figure of speech.
u noe smth tt made me feel so shit.
u said indirectly tt i was causing more problems to u.
and u said i was too conclusive of other peoples words.
u noe it realli hurted?
u were also conclusive okay.
u said tt i wanted to ignore u,
juz becuz most prob nic told u tt.
u noe i didnt even mean it?
i was juz talking to them abt my problems and discussing wif them la.
i cried okay.when u msged me.i was expecting it.i juz felt as if i havent seen someone tt i realli miss in a long time suddenly coming into my life again.u noe wad?
i guess we gotta rethink abt wad we sae and do.
cuz i guess we can realli hurt each other badly juz by words itself. well, gotta go study, darn chinese O's
aniwaes, i hate milton, bryan, gabriel and zachery. darn biatches.
song of the dae: by the way , red hot chilli peppers.
currently feeling depressed and in denial.
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 10:15 PM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
revealed.
todae, had some stupid assembly.
was so hot la.
den got back my results.
which totally sucked.
even though i scored A1 for physics.
shucks.
chem sucked, social studies sucked, chinese sucked, english sucked, emaths nt tt bad (was expecting to fail paper one, lols)
aniwaes, went home and nw at my uncles house. hahs
was so hungry mann, could have ate a cow.
okay mayb nt, how abt a small plam sized chocolate one..=D
i found out wad u the reason was todae.
i dun tink i will continue to cry over u ani more.
i will forget everyting.
i wish i didnt know the truth behind everyting.
it was so shitty.
im nt blaming u.
bt u could have told me the truth directly.
its okay.
im nt angry or aniting.
i dun realli care abt it now.
i guess we were nt fated to be.
well, so far had a wonderful day todae.
got to know the truth.
at least now im nt being so emotional over the loss.
well, gotta go now.
-im waiting for the one to come and change my life-
song of the day: come home soon, pug jelly
my favourite quote: "god is always wif us, in our heads and heart. he doesnt abandon us."
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 7:54 PM
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
lost without you.
I swear that I can go on forever again
please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
give me your lips and with one kiss we begin
Are you afraid of being alone
cause I am, I'm lost without you
are you afraid of leaving tonight
cause I am, I'm lost without you
I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
where are you now I can hear footsteps, I'm dreaming
and if you will, keep me from waking to believe this
Are you afraid of being alone
cause I am, I'm lost without you
are you afraid of leaving tonight
cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of being alone
cause I am, I'm lost without you
are you afraid of leaving tonight
cause I am, I'm lost without you
are you afraid of being alone
cause I am, I'm lost without you
are you afraid of leaving tonight
cause I am, I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 9:46 PM
realization.
todae was quite alrite.
went tanning.
bt it started raining 1 hour after i started la. darn.
so went to cousins house and after tt went out to lunch wif cous.
rushed to nics house.
went swimming and played basketball.
they had glorify, bt i soon left.
cuz i had tuition. sighh.
and i saw someone frm churchh on e bus
bt i forgot her name. lols.
i dun noe why i was so teary todae.i tried to forget u.i tried to get u off my mind.bt i couldnt.i noe u dun have animore feelings for me.i shldnt have fallen into love.i tot it was juz a crush tt would be over soon.bt i didnt realise tt i had fallen in love wif u.i guess i was too vulnerable.i tot i had gotten over it.bt i suddenly realised tt i had someting missing in my life.it was u.....bt i know in ur heart deres someone else.i guess its realli over.-memories tt will never be forgotten-
song of the day: i want you, electrico
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 8:41 PM
Monday, May 16, 2005
the day i tried to ignore u.
todaes e end of my mid yrs.
e feeling of a burden off my back juz feels so gd. =)
well, todae went to watch movie.
was actually planning to play pool.
bt had no time. shucks
aniwaes, watched kingdom of heaven.
whoo, nt a bad show actually, "what gd is a man if he's..." err i forgot e rest. lols
and i met dinesh, kym and nic. lols
i pretended to dao dinesh. hahss sorriee dinesh
im sorry i tried to ignore u.i dun noe why i did tt.i guess i didnt wan to disturb u and all.cuz i tink mayb im impt aniwae.bt i cant let go of u somehow.i dunno why i cried in e hall during my exams.i juz wish tt i could get over everything.-sometimes dont u feel once u slept, u will never wake up to face ur problems again.-
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 7:01 PM
Sunday, May 15, 2005
the day my world came crashing down...
look, i dun noe why i held on.i shldnt have.i was only hurting myself.its so tiring to do tt.i finally gave up.i believe i am able to.it might take a long time,bt i will eventually.i noe u have another person in ur heart.so i will nt hold on ani longer.i dun see a reason to do so nw.u noe all e bad things ppl mouth abt u behind ur back?i dun believe tt u r like wad they sae.my hopes were crushed.u were e best.i will miss u.i will remember u.i will nt forget our feelings.bt i will still be ur frend as always.and ur brother in christ. =)well i hope tt u and him will have a great relationship.todaes a sad dae, as owaes.
wad can i do in a sad life?
well, im happy i nearly finished studying.
can i let go of her?
i pray tt god will give me the strength.
well i cant change who she likes.
bt i can improve on myself.
-i will be waiting for the dae i meet my princess-
song of the dae: behind this hazel eyes, kelly clarkson
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 5:38 PM
Friday, May 13, 2005
its all about you..
im backk, frm trying to study. lols
tis shit aint bananas, b-a-n-a-n-a~lols im goin mad
dinner was greatt. had mashed potatoes, fish fillet...wahhh superbb. x)
i wish i could juz tell u those 3 words.i love u.im so sorrie abt todae.i didnt mean to ignore ur msgs lyk tt.i shldnt have done tt.im so sorrie...will u forgive me?u noe, when i found out u were serving tml.i was overjoyed, cuz i could see u earlier.i miss u so badly.when u msged me tis morning..i was so happy...i tot u wouldnt do tt.im nt uncertain abt aniting animore.if i were to ask u to be wif me,would u?gotta go, still got losta stuff to mugg. darn. =
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 7:42 PM
im wishing smth would happen.
todae's a gd, joyful, wonderous, fine dae for most ppl.
i still have to studdy!!! crap.
i so hate my sch fer tis. darn...
well cant enjoy much though. stupid chinese O's.
almost e whole schs gonna have 4 daes of holidae, e whole wkend, and mon and tues~ wth la.
well its reality isnt it? its an unfair world.
gotta go mugg and mug and mug fer my stupid bio paper.
i kept tinking abt her todae, when i was doing e maths paper.i guess its juz so hard to let go and even try to nt tink abt it.i dunno wads e future lyk la. crap...i cut my hair todae. l0ls
nw its so shiitty la. hahhas.
im nt feeling well. darnn flu. gotta go take a nap and study. shucks.
-hopelessly lost without u-
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 11:39 AM
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
i miss u....
sighh.todaes amaths paper was shitcrapp. i hate it~gotta go study nww. ciaooooo~I don’t want another pretty face
I don’t want just anyone to hold
I don’t want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You’re the one I wanna chase
You’re the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
I know that you are something specia
lTo you I’d be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you’ll see the heart in me
I don’t want another pretty face
I don’t want just anyone to hold
I don’t want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You’re the one I wanna chase
You’re the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I’ll ease your mindIf you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try
I don’t want another pretty face
I don’t want just anyone to hold
I don’t want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You’re the one I wanna chase
You’re the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don’t wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 1:03 PM
Monday, May 09, 2005
oh gosh.its been long since i blogged. lolsupdateess: lifes been good to me.im a changed mann~ x)im touched by gods love. im a believer!! =)my 4 earholes are all gone, sad isnt it?i dun drink nowdaes(glad to do so)i met someone whos realli important to meim more matured. l0lsyuppp, all tt and much more. juz cant rmb everyting hahs x)aniwaes, i guess i gotta study noww. ciaoz~ =)i dun regret knowing u.i didnt realise tt we had several similarities.im nt blaming u for wad has happened.now i know y we drifted away so far apart the last time.i guess we shld forget everything,lets start anew~ shall we?
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 7:49 PM
