Saturday, September 24, 2005
I LOVE MY AUNT'S NEW PUPPY!
OMG, ITS SO CUTE!
it bites though, stupid teething dog.
prelims are over.
i don't know if i'll do well.
shit, im worried.
if i told you what i really felt,what would you do?back to playing with the dog.
cant wait for service today,
saturday's are usually fun.
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 12:29 PM
Friday, September 09, 2005
i don't know what's up with me
like everything's going not the way i hoped or it usually does
its totally FUCKED
i need to permanently change the way i do things
i need someone to help me
and i only see a handful who can do that
god, me, myself and some friends
looking out of my window
raindrops clash down on the ground
fighting a losing battle
beautiful hallucinations of you,
conjured in my eyes
regrets swell up in me
words that i never told you arose
don't you know
that i need you
i miss you
tears overflowing in the sockets
turning red with pain
as if bleeding on the inside
i never told you
since you left
my heart decayed
day by day
wishing for you to come back
waiting for you to come back
waiting...
this isn't right.
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 5:25 PM
Monday, September 05, 2005
IM NOT FEELING WELL. ate too much.
BAH.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JABEZ(BELATED)! ((:
chem prac was today.
was so tedious
bt overall was alright.
i wrote nonsense though lols.
went to cedele at republic plaza to eat
was with my mom :D
my red eyes watch the falling leaves
warm fresh tears dripping down from them
longing for you to come back
the crimson skies
glooming dark clouds
both tell of my heart
scoop up my beating heart from the depths
streaked with bleeding slashes
fill me up with ur viscious liquid love
flowing through my arteries
burning through them like molten metal
it's ecstasy
poisoning my body
i try numbing the pain
our lips collide in a furry of kisses
u took the pain away
our hands interlaced
i love you
- euphoria.
-IHATEYOUNOT <3
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 3:15 PM
Friday, September 02, 2005
ENGLISH PAPER WAS ALRIGHT! I HOPE I DO WELL THOUGH. :))
i need my muah chee now!
quickly come home mom! xD
i knew it was a fluke from the start
it can never happen.
its like trying to grab hold of a hologram
and it goes right through.
jealousy ran through me at first
i extinguished it easily.
i have loads of dead feelings
i just need to get rid of all these dead hearts collecting in me.
why did i even think of it in the first place?
chain this fickle heart with shackles
then stab it with a dozen sharp objects
bury it in the deep depths
bury it in the deep depths
or would you rather accept it as it is
and hold it in ur hands
tearing out the sharp objects one at a time
bt let it bleed
the crimson blood will flow out through these red pupils
down my cheeks
till it forms a scab
then peel it off
send pain searing through my body
i love you for that
i love you
-tear me apart
and put me back into pieces again
it was a waft of euphoria
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 6:21 PM
