Thursday, June 23, 2005
the day we decided to keep a distance from one another.
alrights. i know i have not been blogging for a long long long time.
well, lets recap.
okay, the ignyte concert was fantastic.
my fiery passion for god was made even brighter.
thank god my cousins came for the concert and all.
well, i met someone special at the whole event it self.
we liked each other as in, infatuation .
we kept meeting up since then. like everyday.
including today.
alright, ytd i went to the science centre for some microbiology stuff.
prettae fun i guess.
we were like primary sch kiddos running around.
it was so interesting also la.
lols.
today's a prettae good day i guess.
well woke up and saw 2 msgs sent by her.
oh ya, and she gave us nicks.
she's chio bu and im shuai ge.
oh my gosh.
so sweet right?
i love her loads!~
anyways, i replied her and bathed.
she called.
we talked on the phone.
then she went to sch.
so we hung up and i went to play bball with my bro.
man, i was like trashing him big time.
cause im like so much taller than him.
duhh. =x
i went to eat my breakfast.
the prata was so so nice la.
goodness.
anyway, i went home after that.
did my work and all.
then she called again.
i love her so much!~
gosh.
although its like a crush and all.
okay, i went to compass point to meet her.
she was late.
her auntie was like questioning her where's she going and all.
so we met up.
we went to the place where she calls it the usual place.
we sat down and talked.
after that, she had to leave.
she was going to have tuition.
so i walked her to the cab and stuff.
and i opened the door for her okay.
im a gentlemen. hahas.
here comes the sad part of my day.
she msged me.
telling me that we shld stop all this mushy stuff.
as in telling each other how we feel.
like we miss each other and all.
cause she said that if we continued this way,
we will end up in a relationship and eventually break off soon.
i was pretty sad.
i know it was for our own good.
cause we are still studying and all.
and im having my O's this year.
-sigh-
i guess i have no choice either.
i don't know if we will ever be together.
i feel so uncertain.
is this another of her "give me some time to think" ?
it seems to be like it.
im just being so uncertain about us.
i just pray we can be together.
if it is right, whats the reason?
sigh, i better stop thinking to much.
let god do his will.
my emotions and thoughts are running wild now.
im sad, uncertain, afraid and that dreaded feeling of being so alone again is coming back.
gotta study.
i gotta stop all this stuff before i get out of hand.
god, i pray that you will help me to understand whats really going on.i feel so uncertain lord.help me to prioritise my work.lord, help me to know if she's the right one.i thank you lord, for letting her path cross with mine.she's a great person.i thank you lord.i pray all this in jesus name, amen.-i miss you-
chio bu + shuai ge = the perfect combination.
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 4:26 PM
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
biatchyy
havent been blogging lately,
been lazy and quite busy.
alritees.
ytd was funny.
saw one butch.
she was eating halfway,
when the coffee shop woman ask her
"xiao di, yao bu yao he shui"
me, sheng, dave, wei lun were like laughing la.
it was so hilarious!
gosh.
i bet tt butch was so embarassed.
todae had some lessons la.
first was physics,
man,
it was horrible.
willy's been honing up his skills.
the whole class was restless.
me and david went to liew lian.
had abit of breakfast.
i stole a piece of prata from my frend.
lols.
dave had a tummy ache.
mayb it was the coffee.
we walked back to sch.
literally strolling, cuz of dave.
went for amaths.
man, those 4E3 ppl were no-brainers.
was pissed off wif the nonsensical ppl.
went to liew lian.
ate again.
was so hungryy.
saw sheng, daniel, bingy and others la.
they sat at the same table.
we were like talking non stop la.
hahs.
bing said tt i was playing ard wif my sideburns.
and he said tt it looked so "beng".
i was like "am i tt badd?".
okayy, i saw dinesh.
he wanted to go to city harvest.
i was like
"uhhh...okay"
went back to sch wif dave, bingy, sheng , gerald and so on la.
had chem remedial.
bingy was like playing wif the haw flake paper wrappers la.
creating "snow"
lols.
i got scolded by jean koh.
cuz of bingy.
i was like " wad the hell! i didnt do aniting"
went down for chem pract.
was fun la.
sheng was like colour blind and had to keep asking me if his chemicals had changed colouration.
lols.
and i kept screwing the titration up.
rawrrrr!!!
went to find ong after tt.
bt she was not there la.
shuccks.
i waited and waited.
seemed forever.
i went home wif sheng and da rest.
took a bus to central and took 147 home.
was really bored.
i couldnt stop myself from venturing back into the past.
i really missed some people.
sigh.
and i regret doing some stupid tings in my life.
well, i have to move on and work hard for O's.
i have goals and ambitions to fulfil.
well, gotta go.
juz so bored.
im feeling guilty of nt revising.
song of the day: come get some, rooster.
-deres smth new everyday-
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 6:07 PM
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
scars of the past.
*rawrrr* wtf.
todae was crappy la.
woke up so earlie.
had to go to school for extra lessons.
freak.
fell aslp in william ng's class,
i was so embarrassed la.
cuz i slipped off the table when i was slping.
lols, crapp. hahhs xP
aniwaes, talked to weisheng and daniel after school.
was wif dave.
hahhs.
we were lyk insulting other people la.
and talking abt our own personal tingss. x)
so i went for maths tuition after tt.
was freaking shit sia.
there was one ge ling sitting beside me.
crap man.
was so stink.
shucks.
aniwaes, dere was tis gerl sitting opp me.
she left the same time as me.
woah,
she was freaky.
she suddenly disappeared, after walking down the stairs la.
was freaking scary la.
aniwaes, took a bus home.
was so pissed off with tt kiddo sitting behind me.
*rawr*
okay, i suddenly smelled the scent of one shampoo tt one of my ex usually uses.-sigh-i juz realised tt i realli miss her alot.well, its over.wad can i do?i dont wanna go back again.i dont wanna revive the pain i felt.its a like a scar in my memory, always bringing back bad memories.i gotta go.
sighh. nt in the mood for aniting.
song of the day: yellow, coldplay
- i will be waiting for the gerl to step into my life.-
raison d'etre [I`m in love.] 6:28 PM
